March 26, 2018 Catherine Mendoza 48Comment

Bangkok? Great!

My desire to get away from the stressful and uncomfortable situation in Manila led me to the decision to move to Bangkok.

It's been really a tough time for the couple of months for me. I had some undesirable worries and stress and I didn't know if things would cooperate with me. Luckily, I have a mega positive thinking that helped me out. Plus, people who consistently stood by me in whatever circumstances I was in. Loving Family, super friends and my amazing boyfriend who always got my back. Thank you. Goodbye for now Manila, it's been really a roller coaster ride with you. We all need changes, although some of them are really hard to deal with, still, never underestimate the magic of new beginnings. Hello Bangkok, you're going to be my new home for a while. Please be good to me. ?❤️ And for those who are asking where on earth I landed, I'm safe and sound, don't worry. Sorry for not able to reply to all your messages yet, ( mejo lumalablayp pa ?) I'll get back to you as soon as I can. Thank you and I love you all! ❤️???? Cheers ?! . . #newjourney #traveler #manila #newchapter #bangkok #traveling #newhome #thailand #amazingthailand #letsgosomewhere #passionpassport #escapesanddiaries

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Since Bangkok is being battered by a storm, I’m snuggling under my sheets and basking in the warmth of my bed. Suddenly I’ve realized that I will soon be leaving the place I call my second home. Time flew fast. Fast enough to bring my life to order.

Moving to a new city abroad wasn’t an easy decision to make. The beginning of the journey was full of uncertainties, but it was exciting.

 

In April of 2017, I went through a life crisis wherein I learned a lot of lessons and worst things in my life. I chose to move forward, so when my boyfriend helped me book a flight to Bangkok, I knew in that instant that it was my chance to do what I had to do.

Within my first 2 weeks in Thailand, Chris and I met and traveled together to Koh Chang Island and Chiang Mai. Our trip was planned and to be fair, I warned him about how I was when traveling—moody, demanding and grumpy.

 

Surprisingly, everything went smooth and fun, contrary to what I expected. I always thought that traveling with a companion meant compromise all the time.

Our trip was a golden ticket to getting to know each other spontaneously and profoundly. It defined our relationship and made me love him deeper. We were a new couple back then and the trip surely made us closer to each other. I’m going to tell you more about that in my next writing.

 

When he flew back to Munich, we said hello to a long distance relationship. But I continued living my life the way I wanted to. Things wasn’t easy at first. I met hardships. Luckily, someone trusted me to manage a guesthouse the whole time I was in Bangkok. But my anxiety got the better of me. I was worried, because visa for Filipinos would last for only 2 months.

 

Tomorrow I’d have to make my decision on where to go next and what to do after Thailand. Honestly, if you’d ask me what my next plan is, I would say, nothing, I'm very uncertain and undecided. Because seriously, there’s nothing that I can come up with to do one after the other. Until now I’m still confused on what to be the next step. Truly, it’s hard to be an adult, plus, moving out of my country doesn’t make me sad but makes me get to think what should I do with my life. I still have a job that I can rely on, but may not be enough to sustain my living if I want to do more than what I am doing right now. This life becomes very uncooperative sometimes. How do you deal with this? Do you have some people to have your back when somethings turn you down? Or just have to stand on your feet and do your best. I am a very positive person but sometimes, things are real and can’t escape from them. Wish me luck that everything will turn our just fine. Though, I’d like to let you know I’m doing all fine right now. Just things are a bit shaky and over reacting to me. I don’t have a timeline when to achieve things, I just know that if I keep moving, absolutely things will be better, by any chance. Have you had this kind of drama or whatever you call it in life before? How do you deal with it? Yay! This needs of enlightenment never gets old in me. ♡?? . . . . . . #travel #traveling #positivity #positivevibes #greatthings #wanderlust #instagood #instadaily #passionpassport #letsgosomewhere #couplegoals #worldcitizen #sanae #sanaehotel #chiangmai #thailand #amazingthailand #wheninthailand #travelblogger #travelwriter #travelstoke #enlightement #bangkok #thailand #amazingthailand #newjourney #plans #escapesanddiaries

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Looking at the brighter side, life here is chill and easy. Every day, I got to meet new people, share stories and make friends with them. Plus we had a set of volunteers coming from across the world and everyone was a member of our family.

 

The home where I live is situated in a local community where sumptuous local cuisine can be found. Also, Bangkok is dotted with numerous 7-Eleven stores. You can find them on every corner. Everything seems to be accessible. Transportation is highly efficient.

 

I have gotten used to the friendliness of Thais, particularly the owners of the guesthouse who sometimes came by to drink beer with me and any guest hanging around.  The Thai cleaning lady (as we call her) has zero English, but I saw her kindness and sincerity even though we can’t completely understand each other. Most of our conversations are filled with hand gestures and body language.

 

I really enjoy living in Bangkok. In fact, I didn’t experience culture shock. Having a foreign blood somehow makes me feel different from the rest of them, so I just use to my advantage my being mistaken for a local.

 

As regards my day-to-day expenses, I’m always on a tight budget. I’m grateful that don’t have to pay rent and for utilities. Bills are a pain in the ass. Being stingy, I go to the supermarket, so I can just cook food at home and save a few bucks from not eating out. On weekends, I stay in my room and chat with Chris all day long. I don’t care even if others laugh at me for not having a night life. Although, it feels as though I’m a couch potato.

 

My life in Bangkok isn’t perfect, but I love it. It has given me more time to write, something I’ve always loved to do. It has taken away the monotony of sitting in front of the computer for 8-10 hours straight, 7 days a week. That old life isolated me from the world. 

 

Looking back, I had never been this content in my life. I’m glad I decided to move to a new place, letting me get out of my comfort zone. Now, I’m able to ponder upon my next steps toward the future. Sometimes, the stage of maturity is wild and intense.

 

I also can’t be more grateful for having Chris around in all aspects of my life.

Indeed, the first few blocks of the journey require hard work. We have to go through tough times, so we can achieve great success later on.

 

 

The truth is, we don’t have to worry about anything. We just have to follow our heart’s desires, do what we love to do, and everything will follow.

 

There’s nothing wrong with moving from one place to another. Changing our environment is sometimes uncertain, but the heavens will shower you with what your heart desires. Release the stress. Live worry-free. Think positive.

 

 

And remember, when you believe in something great, something great will happen. As of this writing, I’m counting down toward hopping to a new city, Hanoi.

 

But hey wait! I’ll be back in November! 

 
( updated March 2018)